I just want to matter

"Dress for action like a man; I will question you, and you make it known to me. Will you even put me in the wrong? Will you condemn me that you may be in the right? Have you an arm like God, and can you thunder with a voice like his? "Adorn yourself with majesty and dignity; clothe yourself with glory and splendor. Pour out the overflowings of your anger, and look on everyone who is proud and abase him. Look on everyone who is proud and bring him low and tread down the wicked where they stand. Hide them all in the dust together; bind their faces in the world below. Then will I also acknowledge to you that your own right hand can save you. (Job 40:7-14 ESV)

I am angry. I identify with Job tonight.  I am proud, I am self focused, and I feel like shaking my fists and saying that I KNOW what is best for me.  I do not listen to reason, I believe that I can save myself.  These are all the things that my actions and thoughts would say today about me today, and even worse, there is a pride inside that wants to tell me that this is good.  I look to the book of Job tonight and see God's response to Job's complaint (his situation being far worse than my own).  I do not have an arm like God, nor a voice that thunders as Does His.  I am nothing in the scope of creation.  Truth be told, I don't care what He says tonight, or how He says it, I just need to hear from Him to show me He cares, that He is involved, and that I matter to Him.  

I know I matter, I know He cares, I just need that embrace of assurance from Him tonight.